I did it. I finally did it. I mustered up just enough courage to finally “jump without the rope”, and last week I left my day job to further pursue my entrepreneurial interests and spend more time with my boys.
In my last post I had shared that over the holiday break I made some important decisions about what I wanted for this new year for myself and for my family. It took a little longer into the new year than I had originally anticipated, but nevertheless it happened. It was not an easy decision to make, especially since there is no “2-for-1” deal with twins by any means, we have a mortgage, debt, and going to a single income was/is terrifying. However, I was not happy in my job, wasn’t growing professionally, wasn’t seeing my kids enough, hated my commute, and my side business had suffered once I became a mom and returned to my full-time job. I felt I was not doing any one thing well, and that was a tough pill to swallow.
I have never not had a full time job since senior year in college, I have never left a job without having something else lined up, and I never thought I would leave a job to be home more with my kids. Ironically, a dear friend of mine gifted me a book of illustrated meditations on my last day at work, and the quote on that day said “If you are not happy here and now, you never will be” (~ Taisen Deshimaru).
As I shared in a letter to my colleagues, if life has taught me anything in the past few years, it is it’s unpredictability, brevity, and reasons for why it is important to seize the day. I’m not getting any younger, my kids aren’t slowly growing, and opportunities don’t always wait for what we perceive to be “perfect moments”. I, like many other people, do not want to live with too many regrets in life or look back and say to myself that I should’ve, could’ve, or would’ve, but never did. I have been reminded (often times the hard way) of the importance of focusing my energy on things that I can be proud of and that allow me to live, love and be happy with the life that I want for myself and for my family.
I think we often worry too much about whether or not a decision is the right one or not, or heck, would rather someone just tell us what we should do, right? But, this isn’t how life works. Once I became a mom, I then felt a tremendous responsibility to not also help provide for our family, but also be an example to them. If we do not live our own individual lives with passion and purpose, how can we expect our kids to do so?
If you have ever felt this way, know that you are not alone. If you were in a similar situation and did something about it, congratulations! If you feel you need a change in your life, I strongly encourage you to do so! I bet that the only regret you’ll have is never having taken a chance on pursuing your goals. Jump without that rope, be brave to fail and pick yourself up, and allow yourself to live the life you want!